Thursday, September 03, 2009
My Dearest Friend
My dearest friend for over 20 years, my husband and friend Tom.
He's sick, he's really sick this time. I don't think we have ever had him this sick. It is something new for us because he is usually the one who does things in the back ground and probably is the one who is least appreciated for all he does. Not any more.
About three weeks ago he called me at my office and said "Sue, I have to go to the walk in" and I remember being really busy and I said "Can't it wait!" I feel so bad for that now. He left work and drove himself. He called to tell me he had pneumonia and they told him he should be admitted to the hospital but he was going home. I remember driving to Rite Aid to get his meds and another doctor calling me on the cell phone and asking me all these questions. All I really remember from that conversation is "If he gets worse don't come to the walk in dial 911." He got my attention. The next few days were rocky; no sleeping in our house. We saw his own doctor who was immediately distressed and ordered oxygen 24/7 at the house. It ws pneumonia alright and he was not getting enough oxygen.
Almost three weeks later and he hasn't worked, the oxygen is still on and he looks so sick and can't breadth. Tomorrow we start tests for the lungs; then we will see a pulmonary specialist. The doctor says it's more than the pneumonia and we have to find out what it is. In some respects yes lets find out and in others it's better not to know; then you don't have to face it. This way it's like the elephant in the room. The one you can't see.
For weeks we all three stayed in the house and just watched him; I think he got sick of us. For two days now I have been going to work but always near in mind wondering if he is ok. However, it is better than 24/7 in the house listening to the oxygen machine, wondering what lays ahead, wondering if it will have to become the way of life?
Sometimes I feel guilty knowing others have lost their loved ones, mine is here, we have faith he will get better yet it is hard.
I find myself busy all the time; doing it all at home and now back at work. Somehow busy is better. Somehow having to be out there when people say "How is Tom?" is hard. After about 3 explainations a day I am in tears, crumbled and worried. It is better to not talk about it, to be away and remember happier and healthier days.
We love him, we won't forget it and we know healthier days are coming soon.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
What A Week
What an accomplishment for our "Girl." We are so very proud of her.
Then it was Saturday and we celebrated her "Belated Birthday" because everyone, including her, had the horrible flu at the beginning of the month. It was a fun filled night of pizza. salads, pop, beer, wine and cake. Most of all we were joined by people that meant the most to her this year and years past:
Here is Dwain her study partner in History Winter Quarter. They not only became GREAT study partners but lifelong friends as well. Dwain brought and introduced us all to his spouse Kelly. I feel like they are two people that no matter where life sends us all, we will keep in touch.
Jena Peitersen was there . Jim teaches History at the college and our family became connected with him and Jill when they married. Then came along little Jena who Morgan held in the hospital when she was about 5 hrs. old and the bond has been there every since. Morgan wouldn't let anything bad happen to that girl. It might not be biological but Jena has a big sister for life.
Two of the people who have made Morgan's year in Art successful. Elizabeth Harris has taught Morgan many more hours than she has been paid for and developed a bond that happens seldom in Education -- one that will last many years beyond Morgan's time at WWCC. Nanqi You has given Morgan so much Love and Support in her Art, in her journey of English 102 on Line and as an example of being a genuinely kind person. Thank you to both of you.
Morgan's good friend Hannah. They have been friends since Middle School. Now Hannah and Morgan attend the Running Start Program together at WWCC. They are the "best" of friends. It is cool. Yes Hannah "Holy Shit" Morgan is 18 -- my thoughts exactly.
This is Kurt and Claira. Kurt is married to Susan (the photo taker and she is not pictured any where). and Claira is married to Rick who is not pictured. Susan and Kurt have been in Morgan's life since age 7 and are known as her second set of parents. They have been the best of support to her, her whole life through. Claira is married to Rick and they live in Waitsburg and we became aquainted with them many many years ago because Rick worked with Tom up until Dec. at the college. They are great friends.
Morgan had so many great friends there: Jim, Jill and Jenna Peitersen, Curtis Phillips, Jan Kruper, Dwine and Kelly, Susan and Kurt, Nanqi and Steve, Elizabeth and Hans, Rick and Claira, Hannah and her mother Debra Wright, Grandma Bunny -- it was a great party and just what Morgan wanted a mix of all the people she has known and supported her throughout her 18 years and they were there, they had great time and they blessed her abundantly. What more could you ask for.
Great job and much love to our baby girl!
Monday, May 04, 2009
Morgan Is 18
She was Grandpa Lou's girl! He was always partial to girls but this girl was the apple of his eye. If he was under control he would never have chosen to die the day before her birthday 4 years ago. She has great memories of him though because he was the kind of Grandpa that went out of his way to make those memories. From the time she started taking spelling tests in 1st grade till she stopped taking them he would send her a ribbon each week in the mail to congratulate her on her spelling grade (she still has those ribbons).
Friday, May 01, 2009
A Daughter's Heart
Monday, April 06, 2009
Nathan Bradford We Love You
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Spring Around The Corner
Friday, January 30, 2009
Just Thinking Outloud
I am struggling right now. My best friend in the world is watching her father die. It is so sad to witness this and not be able to save him; not to be able to save her from what is to come. She is soon to become a member of a horrible club "The Losing a Parent Club." It doesn't matter how old you are or how old your parent is it is sting like no other. Her father has suffered from Alzhimers for awhile and so we haven't known him like he was but now his body is shutting down. Her parents have been married for 63 years so again witnessing her mother losing her life partner. Wow, sometimes it is way to close . . . .it adds salt to a wound which never truly heals. Keep this family close to heart knowing at any minutes they will lose him. The hospice nurse says maybe 2 weeks but only time will tell.
My sister in law's mother fell at 83 and broke her hip a week ago. She got the call tonight her mother had a stroke and she wasn't doing good. Keep her close to heart as she leaves Phoenix and heads to Bellingham to be with her mother.
Is it winter or something in the air. I wish it would stop whatever it is. I am ready for Spring and brighter days.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Happy Holidays
Well, it just doesn't quite feel like the holidays yet but it will soon. Our house didn't get decorated, no lights outside because we will be packing up soon and heading to Arizona for Christmas. It always brightens my heart to be there close to family and friends. Lots to do though to get to that point but that call from our "Ciara" "grandma, Papa I love you." We love you too Ciara and we can't wait to be there to do all the things you love to do and meet your brand new puppy. We leave on the 17th and return in the New Year.