Well, I have had a hard time getting this whole thing up and going but I hope I am getting it.
What my goal is for this blog is a place that I can use for journaling. It has been a whole year since losing my dear father to multiple melenoma. He had not been feeling well for about six months but no doctor, and he went to many, were able to find anything wrong with him. He took every pain medication they would give to him to help relieve his terrible pain. However no one knew what was causing the pain. Then in late March they found the "cancer" and from that point it was all down hill and he left to be with "jesus" on Mayh 4, 2005.
Since that day life has changed. Life has changed for my mom who is without her spouse after 52 years and she is so lonely. Life has changed for his two granddaughters who he dotted on and life has certainly changed for my brother and I. My brother tends to bottle it all up and not speak of it -- like it never happened. Me on the other hand I have been crying for one year and it doesn't seem to get better. I don't know if it will get better.
However, I guess life insists we continue to live so live we will do but in a different way for sure.
