Happy Holidays

Well Thanksgiving is over and my how time flys. In just a few days my family and I will board a plane and head to sunny Arizona to spent Christmas with my family. Although my heart is sad that dad won't be there my heart has grown to know that he just isn't there. Does that make sense; you see even though I have made this journey many times before it was different I always had this hope, this belief, this feeling that maybe he would be there but now it is knowing he just won't be there. The saddness doesn't rip my heart out anymore; it doesn't mean I miss him any less it just means I am beyond that total devestation. I am looking forward to this Christmas as it is the first time in 17 years that my whole family will be together; Mother, oldest daughter and her family, my brother and sister in law and my husband and youngest daughter. Yes, we will miss Dad but we will be celebrating the love of the season and our family as it is now. Happy Holidays to all.